Well... most of you should know that the school term has already begun. New beginnings, new expectations and even new feelings towards something. Just recently the dance club had our S.Y.F auditions. Initially i was excited and all... but... there came to a point where i thought about it. Do i really want to do it? I really didn't know. You see I'm a very undecisive person and I would usually make descisions half heartedly, leading to many regrets. So yesterday, I just went for the audition and boy it was the biggest screw up that i have ever done...
Here comes the odd part... Usually if i did that badly, I'd breakdown and cry honestly * you can ask those who know me well and they'll tell you* apparently this time I felt like i didn't really care at all... It was like OH.. what the hell... So when i got home I thought about it. I know that in the past i have said that dancing is my life and blah blah blah... as if im an obssesed BIatch.Well now I'm gonna come clean...*takes a deep breath* I wanna try something else other then dancing... this is a big confession here..cos u c in the past the reason why i stuck to dance was beacause i was afraid of venturing out of my safety zone. I was afraid to lose the many good people that i have found through dance.
I guess it really took its toll huh? Don't get me wrong i still love dancing, but i don't wanna stick to one experience forever. I wanna try singing, drawing, i wanna learn how to play an instrument... all in all, i wanna try something new.Life is short and we only live it once, maybe it's also about time for me to accept that i'm not even good at anything relating to performing. But one thing I'm proud to say is that, i will always treasure my friends now and forever... so my deepest apologies to those who i have disappointed for whatever reason for i haven't really been myself lately... We're all still experiencing life and whether we like it or not somethings just change..
Cuess I'll have to change my new years resolution ahahah!man it was foolish of me to psycho myself ahahah! ah well thats that! I'm back to my happy whacky self again! oh yeah... and i would like to say a big THANK YOU to all my friends who have been with me all the way the good and the bad.
P.S: i noe this blog entry is lyk WTH! but i just had to get something of my chest so yea... :D
~Be happy always~ :D
Maria Christina L. Amante
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